Mostly Poetry

I have no place
But still a longing to fit
And left without approval
I remain lost, alone
While not entirely destitute
I am still an impossible puzzle
In which empty space exists
That is home to nobody, nothing
I could blame myself
I could blame time
I could blame history
I could blame people
I could blame the earth
I could blame “God”
But wherever the blame falls
Sorrow still rises
Because regardless of blame
The sad truth remains

It’s complicated
So much so
That it is insufficient
To speak in code
Or in poems
Holding hidden lamentation
Because upon revelation
The messenger is shot
And cast aside
And what is left
Is the sanity-defying notion
Of what you believe
To be a natural reality

But have no fear
Life does go on
As this pitiful box
That you call your world
Will someday collapse
And close
And a new box will replace it
Perhaps one in which I’d fit
But it matters not
Because I’ll be dead then

Dead or alive
Whether breathing or choking
Swimming or drowning
Your world dictates
The madness I must endure
My puzzle, my problem
Your box, my misshapen heart
I somehow have to face the fact
That the glimmers of hope
Will fade with the setting sun
And while your world sleeps
My world crumbles
So the unspoken story
Will forever leave me
Incomplete.

~wbv

The river flows
The wind blows
The sun shines
And music speaks

The notes are as wind
Or water,
Or a ray of light
To carry the message
To where it should go

Your voice quivers
Your eyes sparkle
Your breath softens
And music speaks

The song is heard in the
Uncertainty of your voice
The sparkle in your eye
And point between your
In and out breath

Your love, unrealized
Your memories, unmade
Your soul, unsatisfied
Your heart, restless

Somewhere,
In the course of the song
Love acts out
Dreams become real
Two souls meet
Your heart finally rests
And the music speaks on.

~wbv

Your pain, my pain
Your heart, not mine
Knowing I cannot stop
Your anguish
Shatters my heart like
Glass

Your eyes speak of your conflict
Your expression tells a story
Of a painful journey
If only I could give you
The future
Or even tomorrow
Or today

If I were a healer
I would heal you
If I were a hero
I would rescue you
If I were a soldier
I would fight for you

Yet I am none of these
So all I can do is love you
And hope to see you through
This most difficult time
That has left your heart broken
And left me wishing and wanting
That I were magic

I’m truly sorry for your pain
I sincerely hope that
Love will soften it
And that through the strength
Of your will
And the light that is
Already in your soul
You will soon see
Brighter days

~wbv

Knowing you
Has never been
Too easy
You’re always
Hiding in the darkness
And spelling out
Confusing words
Speak to me
Simple things
That I can believe in
And I’ll be
Wrapped around your finger
So you can have
Your way with me again

Feeling you
Has never been
Too easy
It seems
Though we’re both human
My hands can never grasp
Your ghostly skin
Sing to me
Simple songs
So I can feel them
And I’ll get
Caught up in the moment
And you can have
Your way with me again

Leaving you
Has never been
Too easy
I walk away
To find I’m
Captivated by your
Charcoal eyes again
Give to me
This simple thing
And turn away from me
So I can finally
Have my freedom
And you won’t have
Your way with me again

~wbv